I turned away from Him
Backslid from the Holy One
Went back to my lifestyle of sin

I now talk, think and behave like the world
I easily blend in
By the world’s charms I am thrilled

I take pride in my achievements and possessions
After all who wouldn’t?
Accumulate material goods without question

Life is all about everything I see
My heart takes delight in physical pleasure
My motto is: just let me be

The preacher and the elders come to my home
They are in concern for my soul
I wish they would leave me alone

“Fall from grace?”
I cruelly scoff
Even at the look of sorrow on the preacher’s face

“Impossible!
God will let me in the pearly gates
The idea of apostasy, inconceivable!”

They all claim I’ve trampled the Son of God underfoot
Despised His holy blood
But I shut out their input

Then I show them the door
Practically push them out
Their pleas for repentance I ignore

But hey! It’s all good
God’s grace covers me
As it very well should

And I have plenty of time to repent
My life is full of numerous days
On my conscience God’s Word can’t even make a dent

I head off to work
Money now my goal
On my face there is a smirk

When bam! I am hit head on
By a drunk driver weaving in and out of traffic
Now my fragile life is almost gone

My lungs fill with blood
A coherent thought won’t come
The paramedics have done all they could

Wait! I’m not ready to die!
Give me one more day!
Oh, why did the drunk driver hit me? Why?

I wake up in the hadean realm
Flames licking my body
By remorse I am overwhelmed

Now Judgment Day is here
My heart is now pounding
I have everything to fear

I stand before Jesus Christ
The Holy One I betrayed
To Him I wasn’t very nice

Tears stream from His eyes
He must now send me to my fate
I fell for the once saved always saved lie

I’m now in Hell forever
No second chances here
Yes, in deceiving souls the devil is very clever

Into Heaven I did not go
Didn’t walk through the pearly gates
And all because I turned away from Him

Author: Angela Chapman