Dear Bob, I maintain that the sin of blasphemy against the Holy Spirit referred to the specific act of denying the power of God in the presence of a miracle. (Please re-read the article for the scripture references). I further maintain that there is no one time act of sin that can be committed today that is unforgivable by God if that person is willing to repent. The question is, have you gone so far as to be unwilling, and unable to repent? I think the answer to that question is no!

First of all, you are definitely struggling with the choices you have made in life. Whatever part you left out, that much at least is obvious. Romans 3:23 tells us that "...all have sinned and come short of the glory of God." That's why we need the Savior, and his sacrifice.

Second, because you are concerned about this condition you have not reached the point of no return! If you had, you would not even care any more about it. That's not to say your soul is not in danger, but you asked my opinion about whether you could come back or not. Well, let the Lord answer that one for you! "...a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise" (Psalm 51:17).  "...him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out" (John 6:37).

Third, you say you were under attack by Satan? Welcome to the human race! I do not mean to belittle your plight, but we are all in the same boat here. Paul tells us, "There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man" (1 Corinthians 10:13). Besides this, if you truly have been "turned over to Satan" that simply means that the church has withdrawn its fellowship from you because of a continual refusal to repent. The object of this is to get the impenitent person to turn back to God! Read 1 Corinthians 5:5 again; "...deliver such an one unto Satan for the destruction of the flesh, that the spirit may be saved in the day of the Lord Jesus."

Have you obeyed the Gospel Bob? By that I mean, have you heard the Word of God (Romans 10:17)? Do you believe Jesus is God's Son and our Savior (John 8:24)? Have you and are you willing to repent of your sins...Luke 13:3,5? Have you confessed your faith in Jesus before men (Romans 10:10)? Have you been baptized (immersed in water) in obedience to Jesus (Mark 16:16)? If you have, you are a Christian, your sins have been washed away (Acts 22:16) and God will hear your prayers since you are now "in Christ" (Romans 6:3; Galatians 3:27). John writes to Christians in 1 John 2:1ff, "My little children, these things write I unto you that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous. And He is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world." Any sin, no matter how small can keep you from heaven, but any sin, no matter how large can be forgiven provided we are willing to repent of it. I pray you will find comfort in these passages.